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=P wenn - 4eva giving mii da pathetic facees.. haas~ oh ya, she lurvees volleyball.. soon hui - she's alreadii 18+ le still act likee small kiddie.. bth! hahahas~ bleahs! laiting - lurvess god songss soo much? haas~ she getss red damn easily unda da sun.. when ii saee red, ii realli mean RED! vonnie - she's nutss alrights.. most crappy de! yeaps, diss gurl lurvess to fart! eww~ oo yeah, melman da giraffe! wheneva she mention diss, she'll go crazee.. most amazing thingy, von smooch mii twicee todaee! whee~ hmm, juss simply lurvees my gurlss lotss! i wann more smoochesss! >.< Monday, May 30, 2005 to one of my gurl / sis: "u're much more luckier den mii le.. at least he do spend his timess wit u, study, basketball, having meals together.. u guys did sms, most importantly, he gavee u hopess.. tht shows u do havv a chance, juss a matter of him making up da decision onlii.. mii? ii dun even havv da chance to spend timess alonee wit *him le.. *he got himself his own lyfee, doesn't even givv a damn abt mii.. soo, cherish wadd u havv now bahss.. hafta repeat again - u dun hafta be wit da onee u lurvee... haas~ tht's juss my piece of advicee.. oh ya, beforee i forgett.. think beforee u act, or elsee when u regret, it'll be too latee.. nobodii cld turn back time de.. rmb!" =) alrights, aniwaee todaee's O lvl mother tongue paper.. kinda tough, lotsa wordss dunno how to writee.. sobsob.. guess my aims fer A1 or A2 gonna go dwn da drain le.. =( nvm, dere's still a retake.. hees~ yeaps, i'm gonna turn up fer da poa coursee on 1st junee.. my gurlss shld noee da reason, rites? muahaha~ went crazee when i got da news.. whee~ hopee to noee him tht daee =P diss morning da toopid yiwen go madee mii so paiseh -.-" i merely saidd tht da sec 3 camp instructor handsomee onlii, she go tell him! argh! *blushing* =X but von! he realii shuai hoh? wahaha~ nahss, i'm nutss! kekes~ Sunday, May 29, 2005 alrights, got back my report bk on lass fri.. results as ii expected, haiss~ english - D7 chinese - C5 mathematics - F9 science - F9 combined humanities - F9 poa - F9 food & nutrition - C6 look at diss.. damn it! how am i gonna go to poly when my L1R4 is 36, L1R5 is 45.. sobsob.. tht's da result fer slacking too much, i've been in total slack fer mre den 2 mths le.. if ii still dun buck up, c mii in ite or in nss again bahs.. =( ii need a tutor! went amk wit ziling & eric to watch a bball match.. all da way dere juss to watch him perform in whye nam, but he nvr turn up.. argh! headed back to yishun beforee them.. meet up wit leo dey all.. after dinner den back home le.. boring~ hafta go flip thru my notess fer chi le larss.. >.< Monday, May 23, 2005 reached home le.. quarrelled wit my mummy.. damn it! sometimes i'm realii wondering is she suffering frm depression.. haiss~ she asked mii y bother to come back when ii lurvee to ton out soo much.. yeaps, was asking myself y too.. even my unclee scolded mii indirectly.. can't even bothered to shout back juss now, remained quiet all da way.. tinking tht my lyfe was realii in a mess eva sincee tht daee, nv stopped playing, doesn't even has a lil mood to study at all.. hatee myself at timess.. =( aniwaee, juss now after da guys came back.. we went safra, den northpoint den back to safra.. yess, *he did meet up *his stead fer awhilee.. feeling not tht bad, a lil sour bahs.. but can do nth, watched them swit swit.. haas~ seen *him hugging her, holding onto her hand.. most of all, seen *him smilee.. tht's enuff.. diss shows tht *he's happii.. as long as *he's happii, it's ok wit mii.. diss might help mii easier to givv *him up entirely too.. =) cried in pool room.. ii admit i'm a crybaby.. but everyone got their own limits de lors.. plss everyonee, dun mention abt da past of mii & *him in front of us cans? i realii do feel awkward de, tears jus filled in my eyes.. plss, no more kks? yippie!! ytd wass realii a damnn fun daee.. whee~ hahas~ had another sentosa trip wit enqi, yue ting, khim gee, vincent, jianwen, wei jie, jason, lesner and leonard.. went palawan, after putting sun-tanning lotion, everyonee went dwn da water and play le.. swam to da platform and play, scary! coss will be being pushed dwn into da water out of da sudden de.. toopid guys! always madee mii fall into da blardi seawater.. so salty! my nosee hurts sial.. kakas~ in da afternoon, mii, yue ting, enqi, lesner & jianwen acc jason to siloso beach to find his cousin.. alrights, we've walked frm palawan to silosa and walked da whole of siloso.. when finally found his cousin's frenss le, his cousin haven reach.. so stayed at siloso beach to tann.. after ard 2 hrs, he's not here yet so all of us headed back to palawan.. fer goodness sakee, we walked back again -.-" back dere, continue playing in da water wit da platform.. till ard evening den we wen to take our bathe.. we gurls bath in da public..! argh~ awkward.. =X diss is da fers timee, & my lass timee.! wahaha~ after tht, we had our dinner at habour front de coffee shop.. reached yishun le, dey guys had some stuffs to do so we gurls went back home fers.. after bathing, mii meet up wit Qi and walked to yue ting's hsee.. damn it! 1 moron (mii) and 1 idiott (Qi) actually walked all da way to da retarded (ting) hse.. so damn far! leg's aching..! fers time get lost in yishun 800+.. hahas~ ard 12am plus we went to meet up wit those guys again at lesner's hse.. not long after, everyonee fell aslp.. and fer mii, of coss i slept like a dead pig.. it's realii a tiring but fun daee.. gees~ now all of them went fer da dunno wuh's fueneral.. left mii & qi in lesner's hsee.. now in his room slacking, enjoying da air con, blogging.. woot~ kbet i'm gonna fall aslp in no timee again.. ZzzzZZz psst: ii lurvee tanning.. =Pp almost all of us kena sun burnt wors.. *red* Saturday, May 21, 2005 alrights.. news abtt *him juss got into my earss, someone juss told mii *he patched wit his ex.. didn't drop any tears till now, dunno w-h-y? ii shld be crying like nobody's business but nahss, juss feeling kinda dwn at ferss but now ok le.. wtf? dunno wadss on my blardii mind oso.. guess i'm numb towards all dis le bahss, used to them le.. likee ii oncee said, u dun hafta be wit da onee u lurvee, as long as da person u lurvee is happii, its ok.. but now da prob is ii dun even noee ii still like / lurvee *him nots.. -.-" hahas~ dun caree mii, i'm frickled minded... bleahs! wish *him & his gurl all da best bahss. hees~ shall start afresh.. hopee ii can.. hees~ went shopping wit my mummy & grandma.. woot~ dey bought mii lotsa stuffs! bought a long pants frm Samuel n Kevin, a pair of flip-flops, a pair of slippers,a bluee skirt and a polo tee.. whee~ actually still wanna buy wallet & hangbag de, but v latee le.. so my grandma juss gavee mii 100 bucks & askk mii buy myself nxt timee. hees~ so nicee yeahs? shopoholic! ii wanna go shopping again lars.. kekes~ Wednesday, May 18, 2005 haiss~ went kinda crazee ytd nitess whilee posting my blog.. my previous post was crapss, nonsensee or my truee feelingss? mii myself dunno da ans as well.. my feelings fer *him is on and off.. i'll be missing *him when ii tink of our swit memoriess.. but i'll be hating him when ii recall wadd * he did to mii.. wadss dis? argh! everyonee told mii tht da *jianwen in da past is dead, no longer coming backk.. tht hurtss lotss but ii still hafta accept da factss.. da *jianwen now hass his own gurl le.. ii can't possibly interfere and continuing fighting fer wadd i wann le bahss.. hopee he'll treat all his gurlss well, cld onlii bless them, nth elsee.. i cld havv jolly well given up on *him but.... all depends on myself actually.. lost! dunno wadd to do lars! doo ii still lurvee *him or it's all hatred? ahhh! someonee plss help..! sobsob... Tuesday, May 17, 2005 few mre daees to da 24th le.. if is lass timee, i'll be excited thinking where *he'll bring mii to celebratee.. now? haas~ can stop daee-dreaming le.. actually i've stop crying fer quitee a period after we've broken up till now le, it's nearly 2 mths.. after playing bball wit *him tht daee, ii den realised tht *he's not totally forgotten.. wadd puzzled mii fer da past few daees were tht wheneva *he's in front of mii, ii dun havv tht kinda feelings fer *him animoree. but when *he's not ard, i'll be thinking of *him.. now i finally noee da anss.. da onee ii lurvee is not da jianwen now, da onee whu's still in my mind is da *jianwen i knew in safra on last yr's july.. onlii when *he's playing bball, ii den cann c da *him in da past.. memories btween *uuu & mii still running thruu my head now & denn.. i thot i've forgotten *uuu long ago, but no! even dere's other guys in my heart, dere's definitely still a placee fer *uuu.. i tried hard & wayss to forget *uuu, but non seems to help... yeapss, ii doo agree wit da breakup btween us.. or elsee, i bet till now, we're still quarrelling likee lass timee. had been thinking alot since we've broke up.. actually i'm partially in fault too.. to be honest, i'm not serious in *uuu fer da fers few wkss.. tht's why i owayss mention breakups & did hurtt *uuu lotsa timess.. when i'm getting serious, ii start to restrict *uuu frm doing diss & tht.. actually i'vee got my own reasonss fer doing all diss.. ii wann *uuu to get home early coss ii dun wann *uuu to get scolding frm ur mum & sis.. ii wann *uuu to quit smoking coss ii realii doo caree.. ii dun even givv a damn to all my exs whether dey're a smoker or not, but fer *uuu, it's different.. ii oways givv *uuu attitudee wheneva *uuu mixed ard wit gurlss or sms wit them, tht's bcoss i'm scared of losing *uuu, soo muchh.. *uuu lied to mii so manii timess but i chosee to believe *uuu again & again.. doesn't diss show how much ii lurvee *uuu? all those hurting stuffs *uuu did to mii were retributions? haiss~ *uuu're da ferss guy ii lurvee soo much, da fers relationship tht i put my whole heart in.. ii still dunno wadd to doo to be a gd gf at tht timee. ii onlii noee how to givv *uuu attitudee, madee *uuu angry, doesn't givv *uuu ani freedom at all.. i thot all diss will made *uuu minee.. da few daees after 27th march, i realii went crazee.. finally wakee up nt long after, realising da mistakes i've madee as well.. wadss minee will be minee.. if not, no matter how much ii control *him, kip *him to myself, *he'll still leavee mii.. thts da result i get now.. if ii cld realise my mistakes earlier, if ii cld enjoying playing games in timezone wit *uuu, if ii cld spend mre timess playing bball wit *uuu, maybe things wun end up likee diss.. *uuu oncee told mii *uuu will nvr leavee mii unless ii dump *uuu, whispered into my earss telling mii i'll be ur last gurll.. ii dunno whether *uuu did tell these words to all gurlss or wadd but they realii madee mii fell deep in lurvee wit *uuu.. da memories we had fer da fers few mths were realii wonderfull.. *uuu will definitely bring mii to watch at least 2 moviess in a mth.. u noee tht ii simply lurvee hugging *uuu, *uuu gavee mii everything tht no others guys gavee mii beforee.. till now, no matter how gd a guy treat mii, realii can't compare to da *uuu.. jianwen, if uu're reading dis, perhapss u'll be luffing at my silly & stupid.. dun worrie, da onee i wann is not uu, i wann da jianwen in da past.. da jianwen now realii's different frm da onee i knew, everytime ppl will come telling mii tht uu get urself a new gurlfrenn, or uu were out dere getting gurls' num or wadsoeva.. guess uu had lotsa gurls' num by now, had some steads after breaking up mii too.. when all diss news camee up to mii, i dun havv any feelings, even tht daee when ur stead was wit us, i dun feel any jealousy within mii.. i'm not afraid of letting da wholee world noee - mii, linda chew lurvees *uuu, ong jianwen.. da *uuu i knew lass yr.. ii noee i'll nvr get *him back.. ii can't findd *him instead.. *he seemed to disappear into thin air.. da jianwen now will nvr change fer da sakee of mii de, coss he doesn't lurvee mii animoree, he doesn't need mii either le.. he's leading on wit hiss own lyfee, gotten himself freedoms he wanted all along.. wit all his new gurlss, he no longer wanns mii animoree.. wadd can i doo now? will *uuu come back?nahss, ii dun tinkk soo.. ii cann onlii sit dwn, waiting fer da jianwen in da past to appear again, so tht ii cld walk towardss *him, hug him tight, telling *him ' ii lurvee uuu, plss dun leavee mii again...' ii dun mindd being wit *him fer da rest of my lyfee.. `praying fer miracless my blog song is dedicated to *uuu.. everything started on 24th july 2004 & ended on 27th march 2005.. a total of 8 mths 3 daess.. but my lurvee fer *uuu is still continuing.. can *uuu tell mii where are *uuu? realii miss *uuu loadsss! Thursday, May 12, 2005 whee~ todaee's a whole daee basketball session mann! kewl.. it's been a long timee since i interact wit bball fer da whole daee le..=D had examss in da morning.. yeapss, quarrelled wit leo & wei jie beforee tht but everything were solved.. all bcos of mii being rebellious bahs.. sowiee guys! aniwaee, diss morning during break timee in btween the exams, yong long drew my facee, wei jie & jason drew on my hand.. gosh! can't wash away.. argh~ everybodii juss stare at mii whereva i go.. kekes~ after sch, went seng kang play basketball at dere de CC wit long, vincent, weijie, les, leo, jianwen, yue ting, veron & jason.. alrights, shld saee tht da court dere's cool! half indoor half outdoor.. somemore at da 4th storey de.. hees~ after awhile, jianwen's stead camee.. headed back to yishun & all of them actually acc mii back to 388 to play bball.. hahas~ so happii.. everyonee were dere, even my soon hui.. hees~ everybodii went home ard 8pm den left mii, enqi & ziling went 400+ fer dinner. jianwen, jason & anson joined us after tht.. eaten le den back to basketball court again.. eddie camee dwn.. all sat dwn & chit-chat.. mii challenged wit jianwen one on one. kks, mii lose -.-" but 3-pointer, mii win! woohoo~ he own mii 3 bottles of drinks, or rather vodka.. wahaha~ =X aniwaee, todaee's a real sweaty & tiring daee but fun! bball still rawks! kakas~ Tuesday, May 10, 2005 ahhh!! toopid darren! toopid shi jun! toopid xin wei! toopid eugene! toopid ziling! hmpf~ todaee wholee daee call mii ah ma.. hahas~ coss mii tie mii de hair bun den takee mii de hangbag to sch.. kekes~ -.-" meet darren, xin wei, eugene & some gurlss wit ziling at burger kingg.. awhile onlii, mii went back home le.. acc jun chong & jun ren to 400+ fer lunch den headed to timezonee with leoo.. todaee, not manii ppl's deree, onlii khim & vin.. so went off early.. actually wanna go straight homee de, again saw ziling, shi jun, terence and peeps dwnstairs.. hees~ so joined them instead.. played bball awhilee, crapping fer quitee some timee, planning when to go play pool.. yeah!! hahas~ latee le.. all went homee le.. left mii, darren, ziling, shi jun and kian meng.. so boring so went to 400+ again fer dinner.. hahas~ all rush home beforee 9pm to catch da show.. kekes~ meet up wit shi jun again at nites after da show.. chit-chat fer awhilee.. haiss~ da guy 4eva sad sad de.. cheer up larss! hees~ hmm, not gonna study fer tml's exam.. mii givv up le, acc guan =X hahas~ mii go ZzZZZz againn.. buaiss! Monday, May 9, 2005 all my papers gonna fail.. my poa, math & everythingg! argh~ onlii got confidencee in my chii paper.. da restt i'm not gonna studdy le.. no mood to even studiess. in my mindd all pool & tekken.. gonee casee le larss.. sowiee, peeps out deree.. my mummy, all da teachers, guan, my sistas n bross.. i'm gonna disappoint all of u by breaking da promisee i've madee.. realii sowiee.. will work hard fer my O lvl de.. gonna get a tutor, or elsee u'll c mii in ite nxt yr le.. =X aniwaee meet up wit leo & guyss at timezone in da afternoon.. went back ard evening timee & meet up wit shi jun.. actually got nth to do de, suggested to play basketball after tht.. so slack at da basketball court wit him, ziling, darren dey all till ard 8pm plus den camee homee. *yawn* v v v tired.. can i dun study fer tml's examss? sobsob.. Sunday, May 8, 2005 mother's daee! hmm, nv realii spent my timee wit mummy.. she went to grandma hsee while i went studying wit jun chong, enqi and ziling.. poa sucks! dun even noee abit.. gonna fail tml! after tht, meet up wit leonard, vin & guys.. not long after, all went home le.. yeapss, meet shi jun fer a short while onlii.. left mii, leo & khim, so bored! went fer a movie 'house of wax'.. damn it! kena checked IC, no choice, hafta sneaked in da theatre instead.. aniwaee, tht showw's gross but cool! nicee show, reallii.. worth watching.. hees~ aniwaee, bought a handphone keychain & a card fer mummy.. she seems to lurvee it.. goodie! Saturday, May 7, 2005 finally i've got myself a hamster! whee~ cheng teck's frenn gavee it to mii de.. yeapss, ferss daee brought it to safra pool room.. kekes~ wei jie & lesner dey all play ard wit it, khim dropped it frm kinda high oncee & tht realii almost scaree mii to death.. phew~ luckily nth happens.. hmm, we named it 'xiao ke ai'.. so cuteee~ hahas~ hmm, diss afternoon went safra to play pool wit terencee, xin wei & darren.. alright, todaee no formm.. hahas~ losee all da way, luckily no play punch. kekes~ evening, as usual, meet up wit wei jie dey all.. played pool till nites.. haiss~ quarrelled wit leonard again! argh~ attituded! Wednesday, May 4, 2005 mid yr examss started todaee.. had eng paper 1 & 2 diss morning.. damnit! it's a gonee casee paper.. haiss~ y muss i go thruu all diss at diss timee, diss yr.. i'm donee fer it! argh~ tml having 2 papers & yet i'm slacking here.. realii afraid tht i might not producee gd resultss, dun wanna disappoint those peeps out dere.. sobsob. diss few daeess hanging out wit yue ting too.. my dear moron! todaee nv mit her, miss her soo muchie! aww~ kekes.. i wanna go back to da daees i had lass timee, gng safra to play pool.. i'm addicted to it again! oh no! hahas~ watching news now.. ice-cream containing a finger! eeeeww~ kekes~ mii go ZZzZZZzzZ le.. buaiss. nitess!
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