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Sunday, March 27, 2005 ytd stayed at home fer the whole daee as * he's working... aww~ miss *him so much fer the whole afternoon but tink ii nvr even flashed cross *his mindd... meet up wit leonard fer dinner at 400+ wit my mummy... den mii & him meet up wit the rest of them to peiwen's bdae... *jianwen camee at nitess... lesner, yong long, vincent, leonard, jason, mii & him sent kim choo home as it was realii v latee le... was quarreling again wit *him again, diss timee round is realii v v serious le... stayed overnitess at lesner's hsee.. da nxt morning, mii & *him meet up wit cheng guan & his frenn... dey gng fer a 3 on 3 basketball match at clementi... dey losee... =( Friday, March 25, 2005 it's public holidaee.. meet up wit *him den meet up wit vincent, leonard, lesner, wei jie, khim gee, jenny, stef, yang qing & 2 of her frenss... went moviee 'the eye 10', so scary.. was quarreling wit *him beforee tht but ended up cuddling wit *him in the theatre.. too scared le, tears even dropped.. -.-" i'm timid, alright.. went timezone den back homee le... *he rather acc her den acc mii.. ii'm totally ........ haiss.. Thursday, March 24, 2005 skipped sch todaee, wit jianwen, khim gee, wei jie, leonard, jason, lesner & vincent... meet up at 233 in da morning den went to jason's hsee wit *him, wei jie & lesner.. went dwnstairs to meet leonard & eat roti prata... not nicee de =X played street soccer fer awhile before gng back to jason's hsee.. watched cartoon network & got tired after awhilee.. went into da room, wanted to slp but was waken up by them, saeeing tht dey gng lesner's hsee.. hahas~ woke up & head to his hse den.. vincent & yong long camee after tht... kinda fun at his hsee.. awhile play com, was being introduced to hovenboard.. it seemed so ez when dey play but when it comess to mii, wahaha~ gonee casee.. awhilee more tekken 5... hees~ quitee nicee lehss.. used ASUKA play... so fun, but kip dying... -.-" hahas~ awhile went to slp... lesner's room so nicee to slp, air-con was ritess abovee onlii... so comfortablee, fell aslp fast! wooh~ tht toopid piggie kip waking mii up, so tired lehss... argh~ todaee's mii & *his 8th mth together... wasn't realii in da mood to celebrate but still went fer a moviee at nitess.. watched 'the spongebob squarepants movie'.. mii requested to watch tht, funni but sort of lamee.. cutee lars... simply lurvee spongebob.. kakas~ went back homee after tht le, nth special actually ritess.. =) he realii dunno wad da hell am i tinking.. haiss... miss *uuu.. Sunday, March 20, 2005 ytd meet up wit jason, leonard, khim gee, lesner, vincent, jianwen, yong long & wei jie... they seemed shock to see mii wearing likee diss.. a jacket wit a tube insidee & a skirt, had my hair tied.. hmm, issit realii wierd? -.-" headed to a pub - CU... was kinda latee so took a cab half way through, split into 2 grpss of coss... alright, thts my ferss timee gng to diss kinda placess.. eh, kinda strange feeling, scared scared.. hahas~ hold on to *his hand so tightly... gurlss dere all so sexy, all dancing likee wadd sial... guyss dere of coss drool larss, tht definitely goes to tht grp of guyss too =P finally got ourselves seats, sat dwn & had some vodka... alcohol 40% worss... eww~ but v nicee coss it's mixed wit 7-up & cokee... sweet sweet de, so drinking non stop... everyonee dere, especially piggie & *him kip stop mii frm drinking.. eventually got tipsy, dey saee de.. coss dey were saeeing some stuffs tht i dun rmb tht i did... hahas~ kinda serious huh? i hardly drink so .... kekes~ onli rmb tht my whole facee wass so red, so hot.. & of coss, giddy lyk hell.. hees~ dey dun let mii dance at the dance floor... =( tink we went back ard 3 - 4am plus bahss, den to jason's hsee... reached home ard 7am diss morning.. immediately fell aslp, *he's bsidee mii... woke up after a few hrss & hafta head to my grandma hsee.. took a ridee in my uncle's carr, damn! lousy car! i'm so damn dizzy, wit sucha burning weather, the air-con sux lyk hell.. was sweating non-stop, dripping dwn de ok? argh~ my baby cousin's one yr old le.. had buffet & a choco cakee *yummy* damn nicee! meet up wit *him again.. *he wasn't happii abt ytd in pub, tink i was realii too closee to some of dem le.. haiss.. sowiee larss, i wass realii blur, can't recall much.. =) Thursday, March 17, 2005 wokee up & realised tht i'm gonna be latee fer my f&n chessy-making coursee... immediately go washed up & wokee my *deardear up... kinda stunned tht he wokee up at oncee when he heard tht i'm gonna be latee.. =)) diss 2 nitess was the onli daees tht i slp damn soundly, all da way till the morning as he's juss besidee mii.. nth to worriee abt.. haiss.. i'm addicted to diss guy of minee... kekes~ *he acc mii to sch den went back homee, continuee his slp.. *snoring* alright, i dun likee the cheesy course larss.. hatee the smell.. *ewww* but the timee realii passed damn past... the ferss timee tht i looked into the clock is alreadi 11.50am le.. wooh.. 10 mins to escaping out of sch.. hahas~ todaee's is laiting's bdaee! mii went orchard wit von & ivy to celebrate wit her... had sakae sushi fer lunch... mann~ our stomachs were bursting fer goodness sakee..! so bloated, fatss all approaching... *sobxx* went taking neoprints after tht... wow~ so happii.. it's been a long timee since i took wit them le... hees~ acc her to taka fer awhile den to mos burger, sitting dwn, had a drink, taking lotsa pics of ourselves using hps.. ahaha~ reached yishun ard 7pm plus... went up to timezonee to find yong long, khim gee & vincent.. waited fer *him to comee... on our way fetching mii homee, *he told mii he's fed up of some stuffs... *he's jealous! hahas~ was kinda happi tht *he still caress..! =X reali... hees~ mii whinee fer awhile & *he's ok le... hehes~ *he's soft hearted too.. ^^ i'm slowly, on my wayy to change my attitude le, trying to trust *him slowly le.. yeah!!! wahaha~ hopee *he realii nv do anything bhind mii back le, or elsee... he'll be dead! dun worrie, *he's still the onee ii lurvee mostt... my dearest boii~ Tuesday, March 15, 2005 sentosa trip todaee wit jianwen, yong long, patricia, leonard, lesner, khim gee & vincent.. was warned not to be latee & eveyonee turned up latee.. shldn't wake up so early de.. *yawns* waited *him till 9am plus while we were meeting latest 8.30am.. damn! fed up, argh~ hatee to wait, i'm impatient fer goodness sakee..! haiss.. both of *us were giving each other facess throughout but after tht ok le... at siloso beach, the one whu acc mii most isn't *him.. *sobsob* onlii piggie's dere besidee mii.. so nicee hohh.. =) having blardi stupid menstration, can't get dwn into the water.. damn! went back ard evening timee, had our dinner at habourfront interchange de coffeeshop.. on the bus, everyonee juss fell aslp.. too tired after wholee daee unda the sun le bahss.. hahas~ den back into my cosy room, listening to songss.. *he staying overnitess at my hsee tonitess.. had alreadii fell aslp, snoring away lo.. haiss.. pig! Saturday, March 12, 2005 ptc (parent-teacher conference) diss morning.. mii & my mummy had a talk wit mr fauzi & ms foo.. lotsa teachers complained mii, highlighted the main point tht i mixed wit the wrong group of frensss, trying to critisized normal tech students.. plss lors, dey are even beta den some express students.. fer example, leonard, yong long, khim gee, jason & in fact the whole group of guyss do treat mii gd... when i'm sad, when i've got probs wit *him, dey will be there.. not siding mii nor him but stand on the right sidess... dey're not reali lyk wad those teachers tink lors.. wadds wrong wit mixing wit them? i've got the right to choose my own friendss.. mr eu jus can't stop giving sarcastic comments to mii & wei jiee.. haiss.. mr fauzi & ms foo got to noee i'm wit jianwen.. they saee every teachers including them can see tht my grades, my results were dropping.. my attitude towards everything getting worsee.. they saee till my mum cried! for goodness sakee, i hatee all the teachers... all my fault actually.. sorry mum.. *sobsob* had lunch wit her after tht at 200+ den i went to *his hsee.. as usual, bicker fer awile beforee we hugged.. hahas~ dunno why muss quarrel everydaee.. after tht, he went to do his duties fer passion arts & i went bugis wit leonard & lesner.. took neoss too, ferxx timee takee wit them worsss.. kekes~ they so funni so cutee.. wahaha~ make a fuss during decorating those picss.. hees~ took a bus back to yishun ard 9 plus.. waited fer jianwen dey all fer 2 hrs! the threee of us got real pissed but got ok after tht.. *he walked mii homee & quarrelled along the way.. ii.... nth.. lurvee *him... Friday, March 11, 2005 i'm feeling so damn bad within mii... onli *him, *him & *him in my mind... haiss.. w-h-y? ii reali lurvee *him lotss but..... will he be minee fer the rest of my lyfee? i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e hopee miracle do occur.. seems likee i'm giving up everything bcoss of *him i noee i'm stupid, naive.. i'm always giving attitude but i do caree fer *him alot alot... does he even givv a damn towards mii? ii dun mind accompanying *him most of the timee.. ii dun mind being there when *he needs mii.. (dun tink he needs mii bahss) ii dun mind waiting fer his call till late at nitess.. (i'm ritess here still waiting now) can he juss treat mii nicer & cherish mii lyk hw he cherished mii? i'm realii lost, crying is all i can do... nth moree.. tink the onli one whu understand hw i feel is onli guan bahss.. thxx fer being dere.. but i've stopped telling ppl my probss le.. kiping everything to myself will lightened u all de worries fer mii.. dun worrie abt mii.. =) sorriee.. ii noee u all will be thinking tht no matter wad u all saee, nth will comee into mii ritess.. ii juss can't .......... ah! forget it.. u all wun noee de.. i'm hopelesss... reali sorrie, especially to u (piggie).. Monday, March 7, 2005 wasn't feeling well.. having flu.. aww~ i hatee diss.. after sch, acc jianwen dey all to the stadium fer sports heat... & i'm sitting dwn dere fer the whole afternoon.. so tired but .........juss wanna acc *him.. =) we're still in no beta situation.. i realii wish to turn back timee!! either to the daees when he treat mii real nicee, or the daees tht i haven't even noee this guy.. accepting a relationship is equals to the ferxx step entering the hell.. at ferxx, will be having heavenly feelingss.. as timee passes, wadd arriving will be hell & torturee.. it reali hurts alot alot! scars will be left behind, memories will not be forgotton.. 4eva! wordss juss can't describe how da hell i feel.. smilee? everyonee ask mii to smilee, the smilee tht i used to havee. i juss can't makee it.. i alreadi forgotton how to smilee le... frowning everydaee, fake-smiling all da way... ..i tried real hard to accept *him now but i can't stop giving *him attitudee.. can't forget! i noee doing diss will lessen the lurve frm *him fer mii, but...... i'm reali lost now.. noee wads stress? problems juss can't stop haunting mii.. onee daee, i'm so damn fucking suree tht one daee, i'll break dwn.. mum's nagging non-stop, teacherS coming to tell mii diss & tht, *his not understanding etc etc... mann~ no doubt, i'm a crybaby. wheneva there's probss or troublees, i'll onlii noee how to cry.. & tht's all i noee.. i'm dehydrating fer goodness sakee..! to be honest, lin's afraid of losing *jw.. at the same timee, she's afraid of being hurt again.. thing's juss aren't gng on the way i want.. argh~ aniwaee, some words fer my 'kor kor', guan guan here... look at mii, i'm no beta off den u.. we're both pessimistic alright.. but u muss be strong! u aren't entering da hell while i'm alreadi partially submerged in dere.. being cheerful is one of da source to lead on beta.. be optimistic bahss.. trust mii! u can do it de.. u told mii diss while smsing, so u can do it too.. no matter wadd, u still havv mii diss 'jie jie'.. so dun worry~ =)) ytd went to junction8 wit *him.. shopped ard, had our lunch in mos burger den catch a moviee 'hitch'.. funny show! v nicee.. bought a black newbie shirt too *cutee* meet up wit khim gee, jason, leonard, yong long, vincent, wei jie and lesner after tht.. all of us stayed out at nitex, spent our day in sembawang park.. alright, get to noee russel & happens to b his bdae ytd.. ate quitee some of his foodss.. =P bad dae!!! lotsa ppl quarrelled.. mii & *him, long & pat blah blah blah... haiss.. damn tired~ juss reach home not long.. realising lotsa hmwk nv do... it's timee to get scolding tml!! heess~ =X Tuesday, March 1, 2005 yeapss, he insisted tht he had changed.. he said i caused wadeva he did wrong, pushed the whole blame to mii. he said my attitude sux, den wad abt his? fucking sux? hmm, mayb thts wad to describe his attitude too.. i'm the one whu givv in recently & he claimed tht he's the one.. he dun wanna mii to kick a fuss & dun wan mii to kip everything to myself.. wierd? oso duno wad he wan frm mii.. mann~ different ppl frm different world saeeing different stuffs.. wth! haiss.. wad to do? there's onli one person to blame afterall.. tht's mii! if i didn't go safra on tht daee, i wun get to noee him tht well, lurve fer him might not developed as wel.. haiss.. all safra's pool fault larss.. =X but wad's donee had alreadi donee. i told myself to let nature take the coursee. if he reali wanna do things tht i dun lyk, no matter hw i stop him, it's no usee. he's still jianwen.. he can treat as nth happen, unlike mii, will frown fer the whole daee de.. haiss.. when den can dis disaster be solved? giving in more reali can b a great help in relationship? if tht's the casee, i muss reali control my temper & cut dwn on my attitude le.. he's sick & reached home latee. i was so damn blardi worried, waiting fer his call impatiently.. gng bonkers le.. but when he called & i onli question him some stuffs.. he put mii off, givv mii attitude lyk as if i'm the one whu's in fault.. damn! dunno wad he can reali do other den breaking promises... but is lyk no matter hw he treats mii, i jux can't hatee him completely... the moment u settle ur whole heart on a guy, it's the moment u stepped into a stupid disaster.. R.I.P help!!! i hatee her, her, her & her..! hahass.. stop acting lyk a somebody when u're actually a nobody alright.. dis will do u bad, trust mii.. scram u idiot bitches!! shoo... all of u are sore to my eyess! argh~
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